This reflection has
been composed gradually over the past week—before, during, and after July 4.
As an American citizen, I struggle with July 4th. I struggle with July 4th because I
struggle with patriotism. I struggle
with patriotism both as a manifest reality and as an idea.
I know that there are other notions of patriotism than “my
country, right or wrong.” I know that
there is an actual, active, and vital tradition of defining patriotism as
loyalty and obedience to the ideals that a nation supposedly embodies as
opposed to the nation itself. But, even
when it’s framed that way, I still have a problem with patriotism. I struggle with patriotism and its
representative holiday always, even when I like the president and feel kind of
okay about the shape of the country.
Neither of those things are the case right now, and so my nausea is a
little more pronounced this year, but that’s a small matter. I would feel at least a bit of this anyway.
Even if patriotism is framed as loyalty and obedience to
principles instead of the nation, I still struggle with the notion precisely
because of those two ideas—loyalty and obedience. The core of my struggle is that I am a
Christian, and as such I have placed my loyalty and obedience elsewhere. I briefly did some teaching in a few public
high schools recently, and I always found it a surreal and troubling experience
when I was asked to lead my class in the pledge of allegiance to the American
flag in the mornings. I would pray the
Lord’s Prayer aloud with my congregation each week for gathered worship and on
my own in my private time of devotion, affirming my citizenship in the kingdom
of Christ “on earth as it is in heaven” before any other group, organization,
or system. I was always irked by the
persisting thought that it was either one or the other, that I needed either to
affirm my loyalty to the reign of God in the kingdom of Christ or to the
visible powers of the governing bodies of my geographical home. And the fact that a sizable and visible
portion of American Christians seem to feel no such tension only made this all
the more irksome. Think of all the
common phrases—faith and family, God and country—that imply an inseparable link
between one’s spiritual identity and one’s national or familial identity. Think of all the patriotic services that go
on in so many churches with so few eyes batted or brows furrowed.
Given these dispositions of mine, it should be no surprise that
I always wince a little at the word freedom. If I’m in the right mood, all the things that
I’ve been told about this abstract noun over the years begin replaying in my
mind, only in a sardonic, mocking, and slightly slurred voice (you know the
one): Freedom isn’t free. It’s more
important than life itself. It’s what we
as Americans have that no one else in the world has in the right way or to the
right degree. It’s why the terrorists
hate us. More thoughtful and
principled reflections on this word might state that freedom is a right that
comes with responsibility; that freedom is given up when one breaks the law or
fails to earn one’s keep. On the other
hand, I have often had such questions as “why did you throw all five of those
cheeseburger wrappers out the window of your car” or “why did you drink three
two-liter bottles of soda today” answered with “because this is America,
dammit!” Freedom, for some, means that I
can do whatever I want whenever I want to, and anyone who tells me that maybe I
shouldn’t do whatever I want whenever I want to needs to get their head out of
their ass and mind their business.
My own church congregation does nothing in our services to
commemorate this national holiday, and I am grateful for that. This past Sunday, however, one of our hymns
did offer a reflection on this word freedom
and how it might be understood for a person of Christian faith. The hymn is a setting of the canticle of
Zechariah, found in the first chapter of Luke.
The music and text adaptation are both the work of a friend of
prodigious musical ability and theological insight. The text adaptation frames verses 74-75 of
this chapter of Luke as a comment on “true liberty,” which is “to be holy, to
be righteous, in His sight throughout our days.” Freedom, in Zechariah’s song, is the freedom
to be holy.
To a Christian, to be holy is to be like Christ. To increase in holiness is to be transformed
into the image of Christ. And St. Paul
gives a sweeping and lyrical explanation of what this might mean in the
Christ-hymn in his letter to the Philippians (2:5-11):
Let
the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus,
who, though he was in the form of God,
did not regard equality with God
as something to be exploited,
but emptied himself,
taking the form of a slave,
being born in human likeness.
And being found in human form,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to the point of death—
even death on a cross.
did not regard equality with God
as something to be exploited,
but emptied himself,
taking the form of a slave,
being born in human likeness.
And being found in human form,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to the point of death—
even death on a cross.
Therefore God also highly exalted
him
and gave him the name
that is above every name,
so that at the name of Jesus
every knee should bend,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue should confess
that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
and gave him the name
that is above every name,
so that at the name of Jesus
every knee should bend,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue should confess
that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
There is so much going on here that my head is spinning and
singing. The second half of this hymn
declares in no uncertain terms that Jesus Christ is the authority to which
every person and every nation, every citizen and every governing body, will
finally answer. For a Christian, this should make pledging allegiance to
anyone or anything else extremely uncomfortable at best. But Paul has just
held up the mind of Christ to his audience as the pattern of their
transformation, what their freedom to be holy allows them to approach. And the first half of this hymn tells us that
this mind is a mind that knows its position of privilege and relinquishes it
for others. It is a mind that
relinquishes privilege in order to exist in solidarity with the slave. It is a mind that does not place its own
safety and well-being above that of others, but instead voluntarily gives up
its own life—not even as a fighter or as a warrior, but in complete humility.
All the talk of freedom
that happens around this time every year here in the U.S. makes me so
uncomfortable because it usually takes a tone that is drastically different
from the tone of this hymn. Freedom,
according to many of the voices that I hear, means the ability to protect and
safeguard my own rights and my own way of life.
It means the ability to deny others what they want or what they need
when those things cause me discomfort.
It means the ability to wield one’s beliefs and convictions as a sword
against those whose beliefs and convictions I find abhorrent or inconvenient.
So what am I saying here?
Am I saying that I hate my country?
No. I find the land on which the
United States has grown up and the cultures made up by the people who inhabit
it to be endlessly fascinating, endearing, and inspiring. The history of my nation is a sweeping story
that engages my mind and my heart, and it is a story in which I cannot help but
situate myself. The ideals that
undergird our political system—that power only works when shared and kept
accountable, that every individual should have the right and the ability to
realize their place in the whole—are inspiring and noble even if they have
often been articulated and embodied by deeply flawed leaders and thinkers. Even if they have not yet been realized.
Am I saying that I have attained the mind of Christ, or have
disciplined myself to learn the freedom to be holy in all my ways? No. I
see the very ills that I decry in our contemporary American notions of freedom
so clearly because I know them to be a part of my own history and my own
patterns of living. Not only am I
knowingly and unknowingly complicit in the ills of our social machine by which
the oppressed are marginalized, ignored, or trampled upon; I am also guilty of
pushing away friends and family, the very people that I am not habitually blinded to, for the sake of my own convenience. I, too, often live as if freedom means I can
do whatever I want whenever I want to, regardless of who may be hurt in the
process.
I am simply saying that I want to understand freedom as
entering into the holy free-flow through which I am emptied of myself—my
privilege, security, and well-being—so that others may be filled with a measure
of these very things. So that, thus
emptied, I might be filled again not by pulling myself up by my bootstraps but
through receiving the same free-flow of grace.
When I think of this freedom, it includes freedom from the things that I think I want and need so that I might be
transformed through experiencing a will other than my own.
I don’t know a way forward in this. I don’t have a concluding statement about how
to redeem the notion of patriotism or come to a better understanding of how my
objective identity as a citizen of the United States does and should relate to
the other identity that I claim as more foundational and to which I do pledge allegiance. But maybe the closest thing I can muster to
patriotism is the faint hope that even nations can repent, can free themselves
of their own self-conceptions and realize that power and privilege can be given
up. But, again, I also hope that I can
learn to embody these things in my own smaller way.